medium to strenuous weekend - i went to pevensey (twice). today saw my grandfather's ninetieth birthday party which was by turns busy, enormous and strangely moving. the journey was awful today, more than 6 hours on trains and buses. yesterday saw e drive me under much more pleasant circumstances to pevensey when the party should have been if the world were a just place. in fact we spent a pleasant afternoon in the castle, lunching at a pub and walking by the sea. how very foolish i felt to arrive with no party on the go or, even due to start that day. rather tired now though, so i am off to bed.